baby diaries: more hugs and kisses

Mommy yet again have fever and colds anak. Yet even when the dawn and morning had been pretty “eventful” from having had to change the sheets and your clothes twice, Mommy still have the energy to go on. And Mommy owes it to you. Because despite your very bad cough and your stye, you’re still your cheery self, giving Mommy and everyone else that beautiful big smile of yours. And when Mommy coughs (or even hiccup!) you would look at Mommy inquiringly while murmuring something, with an expression that’s quite akin to concern – yet another proof how empathetic you are.

Your body must be working double time now, adjusting from your new environment, new food whilst learning new motor skills (you try to stand up on your own now!). And you’re teething besides! Yet you didn’t make it all the more harder for Mommy by behaving, by not being fussy – main reasons why your paediatrician is not worried even when you have lost some weight already.

So I thank you.

Mommy sits here in the office during lunch break and all I could think of is how Mommy should have given you two extra hugs and kisses this morning, more than the usual. Albeit your teachers already always say “ii na” (wow that feels good), whenever I kiss and hug you goodbye.

I miss you anak even when we’re just apart for 8 hours. Let’s do our best shall we? πŸ™‚

juggling

A day before we herald in a new month! And it’s actually mid 2013 already! Would have wanted to post more this month- there sure were quite a number of blog worthy stuff as its been a packed month! – but I usually find myself forgetting the existence of my phone, where I do most of my blogging, once I’m with Yui at the end of the day.

Work has been pretty exciting. I’m working for only six hours a day (mommy privilege) yet now, my workload is for a nine or ten hour work day. But I’m not complaining! Because it’s been pretty interesting thus far. And to help manage my time, I only read emails during lunch time, including work emails unless a particular email has got to do with my work at hand. I only pray that I’ll continue to have the energy and health to pursue the work I want while attending to the other important part of me – my husband and baby!

Hubs had been away twice this month for business trips overseas. It’s a first for us to be away from each other for more than a day and with the baby at that. It’s the reality of our work, free travel but away from family and we have to cope with it.

As for the baby, like all the other babies who has to go to daycare/kindergarten, she is also having her share in getting sick. It sure is very hectic especially when there’s poop explosion or vomiting at 3am or just when you’re about to go out of the house for daycare/work or when you’re in the middle of your dinner. And we hope and pray that real soon, Yui’s system could already adjust. Real soon please, otherwise these worry lines on my forehead would already become permanent. But really, it’s so heartbreaking to see your baby having a hard time.

For the atsushiandmarjorie.com venture, design works are still in progress. If this be an EPC project, we’re soooo delayed already on our ready-for-start-up target schedule. So please bear with us. πŸ˜€

And speaking of blogs, I thought it’d be better for us to start posting “pins” that we’d love to have for our dream house. Not that we plan to build one anytime soon (no 60million yen yet!) but just so we can gather the elements we like and get to have an image of what it is we really like for our house.

Would be posting next time the beautiful interiors I’ve come across recently but for now here’s an element I like that I found in an ad placed on our mailbox. Our current apartment doesn’t have this hence I really see the convenience of this design.

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The shelf right on top of the washing machine would be great to hold our laundry detergents and similar items. But my favourite part here is the topmost movable cabinet that can store our towels. It’s definitely a space saver, maximising the available vertical area and great for the likes of me who’s not gifted with height. πŸ™‚

Dream on!! πŸ˜€

a working mom now

In which today I’m finally a full pledged working mom.

Yui woke up early this morning in that after giving her milk, she drifted back to sleep again. And since I haven’t dressed her up yet for daycare clothes (she had a romper on while sleeping, which is not allowed in the daycare), I had to wait for as long as I can before I really had to wake her up. Even so, I was right on time in the daycare and in the office.

I’ve been on leave for 8 and half months and I sure miss work. It was good to see the people in the office. But it breaks my heart to see yui crying when I leave her in the daycare and when I arrive. I think it pricks my heart more when she cries the moment she sees me while having her arms stretched out towards me. Because it’s like she’s saying “Mommy where have you been? I’ve been looking for you. I missed you”.

My health wasn’t at its prime on my first day. My nasal allergies (and colds/cough!) had a lousy timing, choosing today in making a comeback. Still, am thankful I had the energy and alertness despite my allergies and had the strength to babywear Yui from her daycare to our house. And am thankful that Yui’s empathetic nature understood that Mommy wasn’t feeling well. That instead of asking to be carried around as she always want when it’s not bedtime, she was content (and indeed looked very happy) just snuggling up in bed.

And speaking of baby wearing, for as long as I can, I would baby wear Yui to and fro daycare centre. She’s already very heavy, yes (more than 9kg). But the precious moment of seeing up close how round-eyed happy she is is more than enough payment for the effort.

Haha, I couldn’t see some structure on this blogpost. But one thing for sure. When working, you really also pay attention to how you look. It’s not that you’re just pretending you’re not one harassed mom. But that rather, to show that you’re very happy with your choice and with the blessings that are given you. And yet again it’s not only that. It’s more like asserting your own being. Not only Marjorie the mom nor Marjorie the wife (or daughter or friend und so weiter) but Marjorie per se.

Yesterday, today, tomorrow

When I got home yesterday, our glass vase already had an identical twin vase and was holding this delicately twirled bamboo (and some more flowers that we couldn’t identify).

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Hubs also bought some rattan holders.

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They sure are so pretty to behold they practically make us bubbly.

My nasal allergies got worse again today. Oh please leave me now allergies as I’ve got a big day tomorrow. It’ll be my first day at work after almost 8 and half months!!

Early to bed now.

3 on 30

Many things to be thankful today!

Hubs and I are celebrating our second Church wedding day anniversary.
Always a joy to relive the wedding day memories and the preps
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And today marks a momentous day for our daughter as today will be her nyuuenshiki (ε…₯εœ’εΌ)/kindergarten entrance ceremony albeit she’s still not in kindergarten. Suffice it to say I and hubs are so excited for her. This will sort of be my “launching” too to finally be oriented first hand about the Japanese education system. (Which reminds me I still haven’t written about the daycare orientation meeting we had a couple of weeks back).

Last but not least, today also marks the day that I’ll go back to work. It’s just on paper though as I still need to take some leave to consider Yui’s adjustment at the daycare. In a week, it’ll be my first day too!

And for all these blessings and excitement, thank you Po, Lord. πŸ™‚

baby diaries: sensitive

Usually bedtime is snuggle up time with you Yui. But this evening, right after bath, you already mellowed down. And after burping your last milk intake for the night, you readily went to sleep without Mommy having had the need to sing lullabies. Even while we were still having dinner and you waited for us in your high chair, you seem to notice Mom and Dad are busy. We had to prepare for Dad’s business trip, see.

Thank you Yui Moirraine for being sensitive. Mom and Dad are so thankful.

Incomplete, an act of kindness, Yui’s first solids preps

Tonight and tomorrow night, Hubs is away for a stay-in workshop organised by the company, him being one of the lecturers. I’m happy for Hubs for this opportunity but I sorely miss him; this being the first night we’ve been away from each other ever since our church wedding two years ago let alone the first since Yui was born. Yui seemed to be out of sorts herself as well this evening. Not crying thankfully but more clingy than usual. Nighttime is actually her bonding time with Dad as I go about doing household chores. Funny how she finally settled for the night after hearing her dad on the phone when Hubs called to say goodnight. I am more tired as well since I have to take care of the baby AND do household chores; this after coming home carting a baby in my arms, a bulky baby bag on one shoulder and dragging a stroller/baby car on one hand (Mayumi carried the shopped goods thankfully). But still I’m real thankful because Yui at least wasn’t cranky this evening. In fact she was smiling a lot. So even when I was already very tired, I found myself still having the energy to do some household chores at 1:30am. Thanks to Yui’s help. The miracles of being a mom – you thought you’re tired already yet you still find yourself going and going and going. But really, aside from the lending arm that Hubs gives when he’s around, it definitely is lonely without Atsushi around. Two nights seem to be very long.

Yui is soon to start her solids already and I planned for today and tomorrow to buy the stuff necessary for the first few weeks at least. Been researching on giving baby solids for quite some time now and it’s finally time to actually buy the stuff for us to get started.

For today’s destination, we had to ride the JR train. Unfortunately however, the station we went to doesn’t have an elevator. We had Yui on a baby car and it’s really quite a feat to climb a long flight of stairs with a baby and a big bag albeit Mayumi will carry the folded stroller. The train master however kindly offered to carry Yui’s baby car and even offered that I put my big bag on the stroller for him to carry which of course I had to graciously refuse. When we got up to the platform, he didn’t leave us immediately the moment he set down the stroller. He waited till I was able to safely tuck Yui in in the stroller. Such a kind act. Thankful. Touched. Impressed.

The baby goods shopping was successful. Was really happy with these girly cover-all bibs; hello kitty and suzzy’s zoo being washable cloth type and the owl and flower design being easy to wipe plastic type. We’re ready for solids yey!

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Paalam, Kuya

When my grandmother died last November, I couldn’t sing for two days. Not even Moirraine’s Twinkle Twinkle Little Star. When I learned about Jom’s death last December, I could only ease out what I feel by singing – most particularly Paglisan. But when Kuya Julz death was confirmed last Monday, I became speechless; I couldn’t articulate my thoughts and feelings and could only say “Kuya” with a frowney face on my status on social networks – me who’s usually expressive in written form and more especially when emotional.

When we first heard of the siege Wednesday night, it seemed our world revolved around it (aside from work for Atsushi and me taking care of Yui of course). The day is spent on reading the news and waiting for news within the company. Topic over dinner is about the latest update of the siege. Hearts fearful yet dearly hoping the news about deaths is not true.

Sunday came and we received the news that allayed our fears – Kuya is safe! We were still saddened for the other colleagues (Hubs was getting depressed) yet we were rejoicing that our prayers had been answered – Kuya is safe! I found myself mentally drafting my email to him, to let him know of our relief over his safety. I found myself looking forward as well, to hear about his survival story. I found myself wondering if he’d give a sort of press conference, at least to the P department in Manila, sharing his experience to department-mates who consider him as a dear friend, a mentor, a Kuya (older brother), a Daddy.

But Monday came and brought a terrible news. The real news was that Kuya didn’t make it. It seemed like all the tension and fear in the last five days caused some black hole and took all my words after saying “No”.

Such a terrible way to die, especially for a good man as Kuya had been…..and with this, I find myself lost for words again as I start to try to express myself and try to get a grasp of why it had to happen.

Kuya Julz, I know you can see us all now and know how we’ve been unsettled with your passing; unsettled being an understatement. I can just imagine how your family feel right now because even us, your friends and colleagues all around the globe had been mourning for days; mourning yet still unbelieving. And even when it hurts us a lot, with the unfairness of it, I can only imagine how your friends who share the same office with you must feel; they, who are reminded of you with every corner in the office.

Am surprised I’ve already written quite a lot albeit I still haven’t expressed a fraction of my thoughts and feelings.

I am sorry Kuya that I can’t even write a decent eulogy for you. But know that in my heart, there’s only one Kuya for me – only you and nobody else.

It hurts to say this but I have to because you have to – Rest in Peace, Kuya.
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They say it comes in threes. Please. Let Kuya be the last.

tell us what you want

Hubs’ colleagues in his department asked him what he wanted as their group’s gift for our newborn. A toy/gym? Or an air purifier?

So of course hubs chose the air purifier which also benefits me, allergic to dust as I am. I just find it weird though considering the huge price difference between a baby gym and the air purifier. But of course I’m not complaining teehee.

So the air purifier now sits in our bedroom whilst the Nanoe air purifier that we bought last year has been relocated to the dining area.

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They also gave us baby books – which would benefit both me and Yui as well haha. About time I learn Japanese.

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And a towel set with Yui’s name in Hiragana on it!

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Thankful to hubs’ department mates. πŸ™‚

And of course we’re so thankful as well to friends and family who gave Yui such cutie gifts. I may not be able to post them here in our blog but know that we are truly grateful and thrilled and excited to use your cute gifts on Yui. πŸ™‚

a woman can have it all

A career woman.
A mother of SIX.
A Nobel laureate.

Leymah Gbowee is one inspiration.

Read on for snippets of how she does things.

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